A stick of dynamite in a campfire

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

December 25, 2017 As Roy’s recent thoughts had pointed out, holidays are volatile. Today’s an example of that. It’s been one incident after another, guys beating out windows, popping out sprinklers, flooding, setting fires, and just a few minutes ago, an all available officers to the population barracks. To expand on what Roy had said, we live in a house …

Sensing Mindfulness

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

June 2017 Sensations (How Love Wins) page 69 – List all the sensations you experienced each day when you practiced sensing mindfulness. Also, note if experiencing those sensations decreased your negative mind-wandering: 6/5/17 Was totally focused on the sensations as I did my arm and chest workout today taking the time with each rep to just feel and notice the …

Receiving Kindness

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

June 2017 I can only think of the greatest person I know. My mother who has dealt with serious health issues all of her life. Who is my strength who has chosen to bare the burden of doing this time with me when she could have turned her back long ago. I can’t forget my brother whom when I caught …

I lost it

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

December 10, 2017 I lost it again, two officers were seriously injured with stab wounds. I was shot at with live ammunition and beaten in the head. Hospitalized then transferred to the supermax. A time to reflect and start over. A strange thing happened. The director of the ADC came to see me, stating if I would be kind to …

Kindness to a Lieutenant

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

June 2017 Part 1: When the lieutenant Mrs Blunt who I’ve had many negative encounters with came to get me from the yard I volunteered to come off first had planned ahead and had my bath supplied laid out being mindful that she is busy and doesn’t have time to come back later to put me in the shower. I …

Christopher – I’ve got to decide who I want to be

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

June 8, 2017 I have to practice mindfulness everyday! I’ve always been a fighter, tough on myself so when I I’ve discovered something. I have to decide who I want to be! See theres an image a reputation, I’ve upheld for so long that honestly I’d come to love everyone knows Twisted, wanted to be like him yet don’t know …

Christopher – The focus of my kindness

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

June 2017 Pick a person close to me to be the focus of my kindness. Heres the plan: I’m chosing Red Dog who is what most call a mental health patient. He cuts on himself alot and prisoners always talk bad about him when he moves to the cell block. He also has a speech impediment. He will cut himself …

Christopher – Kind and Unkind Cycles

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

June 2017 Mindful-kind cycle: It began a few months ago when I began to live in a mindful state it led me to start small just not being violent, mean, rude, to others then kind words, led to kind acts for others this built momentum increasing my peacefulness my awareness of others needs all while I was able to look …

Christopher – Profound Kindness

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

May 15, 2017 When my oldest daughter Alissa was born premature weighing 1pd 5oz she was in a neonatal unit over 100 miles from myself from my wife and mines home with us both being under the age of eighteen and with a small child already we were severely strapped for cash to pay bills let alone make the daily …

Christopher’s Responses to Questions in HOW LOVE WINS

Doug Christopher "Twisted"

Question about accomplishments “Im happy with my recent acomplishments/success being able to reign in my anger. Put my negative thoughts to the side, focus on accepting my circumstance. Ive been 30 days disciplinary free which is a true achievement. I haven’t exploded gone over the edge lately THESE ARE ALL RECENT ACHIEVEMENTS I CAN HANG MY HAT ON. MAY NOT …

Christopher – Meditation: loss of body and mind

Ashly Christopher "Twisted"

May 23, 2017 I took a few breaths inhaling and exhaling from the abdomen. Focusing on my breathing it was quiet in the isolation I was quickly zoned out with no thoughts or anything I’d even stopped focusing on my breath. After approx 10 minutes I came back and focused on my breathing as I continued to meditate. May 26, …

Christopher’s First Reaction to HOW LOVE WINS

Doug Christopher "Twisted"

Christopher’s violence had heart-breaking consequences. The report of a state police officer about his violence followed by an interview with one of the guards who was stabbed. In fact the interview was with the guard’s daughter because the guard was not well enough to be interviewed. The guard was so damaged that she cannot even recognize her own family members. …

Christopher’s First Letter to Me

Doug Christopher "Twisted"

I received this letter from inmate Christopher Brewer, who went by the moniker Twisted. The transformations that Christopher Brewer describes are significant in that the probability of him causing harm to guards or other prisoners is decreasing. He not only is finding some internal peace but also is actually trying to help other inmates to find internal peace and forsake …